Honesty War... Round 1... FIGHT!

Staring at the ceiling till my eyes cross and fall out of focus
in a blur I stir up thought of phone cords
how did we let them choke us?
It's all a game, but I don't play games anymore.

Ever get the feeling like you're losing control?
I forget the last time I called you and you were home
but that's ok, I'll just catch up with you another time

You're the last thing left that really felt like home to me
so I wave goodbye to my home for the last time

-chorus-
What are you holding on to?
You seem indifferent. so removed you're distant
and I'm not trying to hold you back.
I'm just left wishing, maybe you'd be consistent with me
and honestly you'd tell me
you'd tell me outright
tell me outright.
Yeah honestly you'd tell me if you wanted out right?
'cause it seems that way to me

-verse 2-
I'm at the front lines of heart versus mind
and I'm at war with what's best left behind
left behind

You're the last thing left that really feels like home to me
so I wave goodbye to my home for the last time

-chorus-
-bridge-

What are you holding on to?
oh, oh, oh, oh
Standing at the front lines
What are you holding on to?
oh, oh, oh, oh
I'm on the front lines

-chorus-


MUGSHOT - "Heart vs Mind"

Monday = Mehday

Ahh, Monday. It is the beginning of a relatively small period of time that I will simply call 'just another week'. It will be marked by new worries and stressors such as: my abilities to regurgitate information onto several sheets of Scantron paper, the managing of several research experiments that I'm required to take part in, the interactions among peers and friends, as well as the management of my extra-curricular fantasy world, in which I assist people in channeling their inner creativity towards some greater goal. Perhaps if my mind wasnt so preoccupied by so many things, I'd feel like enjoying the Gears of War 3 Early Beta access that Im entitled to. Sadly, business comes first.


Despite these things that make up my schedule this week, I have decided that the word for the next 7 days will be 'Honesty', and perhaps it will provide some silver lining.


This means:
Being honest with myself.
Being honest with those around me and taking huge, but necessary risks in doing what I feel is right, Aaaand
Being honest and realistic about the future.

So heres to hoping being honest works out for me...

And should I fail in any of my endeavors or risky attempts to achieve a higher level of inner understanding, which is in all certainty quite possible, then hey, Fuck it all; at least I had Vic's for lunch today.
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Cartel - "Honestly"

How can we resolve this now
We let it go, and wonder how
This can never be the same
Can never be the same

So I guess I'll see you, I'll see you around
I'm spinning while I'm falling down
Now you know why I'm begging you, I'm begging!

'Cause I can't stop it now,
It's so amazing how,
I know I cant, I could never walk away.

Please don't mind what I'm trying to say, 'cause I'm, I'm being honest.

Because everyone loves cartilaginous fish in the morning.

Decided on a new blog idea; I figured GSfB needed to an awesome band or a collection of awesome life experiences, random thoughts and happenings by me.


So, we'll see how this new blog works out for me. As I see it now, it'll be a way for people to sift through all the crap I post on Facebook and allow them to gain some true insight on me.

This'll be a collection of game related rants, random ideas, free written stories or comments made by friends or myself as well as any other events that I deem important enough to let people know about.

And since this is my first blog post, lets add in some recent thoughts. Here's a quick summation of my last month.

Xbox360 Achievements are nothing more than numerical representations of your free time.
It seems like this Grad school business is just another thing for me to stress over.
George Watsky really doesnt need a fuckin emcee name.
Been hanging out with friends alot this semester; friends that have kinda been around but never for a legit hangout. These friends will help keep me sane, a few of them in particular.
Stemming off the above comment, Dungeons and Dragons has been an exciting thrill ride. I find it hard to wait patiently till the group can meet again and as DM, I love directing the flow of story and gameplay; As if I am a Canvas, providing a medium for the artists (players and their characters) to let loose their creativity and personal touches. Its the most exciting group/friend related thing thats happened in a while, and its really awesome to have something to look forward to.

So here's to hoping that the future be filled with exciting fantasy adventures, a pretty girl and plenty of gummy sharks.


"And I feel alright, so please don't get me Rescued. Cause I'm feeling like, I might need to be near you."